not so clear or concise. hopefully suffice.

So by popular demand (and a bit of personal desire), I think I owe you all another explanation! Its just something I've been holding off for a little bit. I don't know why. So first of all, to all you people that have been expecting/asking for a recent update; my sincere apologies. I've felt a little mentally bankrupt lately. But with the help of a few extremely good friends and company, I've decided to bring it out. How appropriate of me to talk about "coming out" on the night of the mardi gras. :P So here it is:

"What does ncpx mean?"
"" " " stand for?"
"" is ncpx?"

You get the drift. At that, I've actually received some interesting stabs at what it is.
One being "ncpx can't play xylophone". Which isn't at all separated from the truth. I can't play xylophone! In fact, I'd love to be able to but I really can't. So kudos to Alex - but, thats not why I chose the handle.

For those of you interested, let me tell you what 'ncpx' is. Or try to anyway. Because I don't really know what ncpx is. Apart from the fact that, oddly enough, I feel attached to this/it/him/her.
So let me begin by saying, I'm a vivid dreamer. By vivid I mean, I recall my dreams 90% of the time with near perfect clarity. Often times lucidly, but thats a different story for a totally different day. I make note of them, write them down in detail when I remember them and analyse them - most of the time I'm able to come to some sort of conclusion as to what they mean, why I dreamed it, and how it applies to my life.

Not so, says 'ncpx' . This four letter phrase appeared to me in at least 5 dreams, maybe more but I'm not too sure. And unlike the rest of the shit that appears, I have no idea what or who it applies to, what it means, or why it appears. I only know that proceeding it is a large number, in the hundreds or in the thousands (for example, 900 or 2000). The number would change, everytime. But ncpx stayed the same.
Everytime I woke up, I said the same thing to myself.

"wtf is ncpx?"

For a few months now, it's stopped appearing. I don't really care - but having said that I wouldn't mind for it to come back again, in a vivider scenario so that maybe I can look at it again and figure stuff out. As for now, it's left me in a bit of contemplation. It could may well mean fuck all. Then again I believe everything appears for a reason (especially in deja-vu circumstances). Unlike most things that I try to stick with, I haven't grown sick or tired of either looking at it or saying it or the idea of it being associated with me. To be honest its actually pretty comforting to know that something like this has come out of the purest of intentions - away from the corruption of consciousness and lucidity itself.

So... to answer your question of "what is ncpx?" and associated likenesses....

The answer:

I DON'T KNOW.




Perhaps we aren't asking the right questions. All I know is that later, maybe I'll share with you the various slideshows and scenarios that play out in my head when I grab my precious 12+ hour beauty sleeps in vivid detail, perhaps even the ones that ncpx seems to rear it's mysterious head in.



Seeya's later.


All love to you and yours,


ncpx xx